is my mind prepared?

Yes... my body decided to get sick this week, and I don't like it. Yesterday and today were kinda icky feeling days... and this evening this sickness fell hard on me with a stuffy nose and violent sneezing. And when I sneeze... it is never one cute little sneeze like silly little blondes in the movies. I SNEEZE... at least 3 times, normally 4 and my record is 11. By the end of each sneezing session I am exhausted, out of breath and normally get shivery goose-bumps. On the whole, not a pleasant experience.

But I really don't have time to be sick. Well... I have time, but not the energy. Or wait... I don't even know anymore. I am busy. All the time. 1/2 the time I don't even actually know what I am busy with... I am just busy.

House-sitting season is on. I just finished a little 4 day stint. And now have another good 4 of it weeks ahead of me... at 3 different places... and they all slightly overlap. Oh man. Can you spell CHAOS. I don't actually know if I can because I keep getting lost in the confusion of it all.

And on top of house sitting and taking care of the animals at each persons place, there are things like work, and friends and who knows what else.... that will continue to happen every day.

"Therefore, prepare your minds for action; be self-controlled; set your hope fully on the grace to be given you when Jesus Christ is revealed." 1 Peter 1.13

This was part of what was preached this Sunday in church. And it really got me thinking. Here I have been trying (and believe me... it has only been trying - so far I have been totally unsuccessful) to be organized, controlled, steady, PHYSICALLY.... but my mind... who knows where its been. But I need to be more concerned about who I am and where my convictions lie, rather than in what I can do. Because what I can do really doesn't matter (because I can't do anything at all on my own), it is what I can do through the grace of God that has any meaning at all.

God has really placed it on my heart to love the girls at my church and my friends from high school. And you know what? I LOVE LOVING PEOPLE. But I keep trying to do it on my own strength. Instead I need to get my MIND ready for action. I need to ask God every day to give me the physical strength I need. Because I have been doing in on my own, and I am exhausted. I feel like I haven't been getting any rest at all. I need to look to him. Find the peace and grace I have been given within His love. I need to get my mind focused on Him (because that is what is really important and what really matters) and everything else will fall into place.