where sky and water meet

When you look out onto the ocean some days there is no distinction between water and sky. And although those are the days when in is overcast and grey - I think that that may be one of my favorite ways to look at the ocean. As I get lost in the great vastness of sky and sea - my eyes actually begin to see more than a canvas filled with grey. I see the ever changing texture of the calm, rippling water, or the way the hovering misty clouds change in density and sometimes allow you to see a little farther than before. Every now and then the clouds dissipate and an island appears out of nowhere. Or all of a sudden there is a sailboat right in front of me and I have no idea where it came from... and in a few seconds it disappears as quickly as it came - and who knows where its gone.

Its a beautiful mystery to me... these many shades of grey that dance before my eyes. The heavy grey clouds sit almost perfectly still... as the lighter mist floats this way and that creating an inconsistent scene. The little waves ripple slowly in... You can watch the wind, as it comes in fits and spurts, blow patterns across the water. Sometimes I feel like God is very similar - always constant yet ever changing. But God isn't actually changing, its more like He is just always revealing new aspects of Himself that I don't expect to see. If you don't take the time to look on these grey overcast days - all you'll see is a haze of nothingness. But.. if you take the time to look, observe, study - you'll discover a world filled with beauty, knowledge and wonder you never knew existed.

I feel like sometimes it is so easy for me to overlook God's hand in my life. I just see grey. But just because all I am seeing is grey, doesn't mean that there aren't a multitude of ways that God is actively involved in my life. He is there... always. Sometimes God shows Himself in my life like a rainbow or beam of light breaking through the grey on these cloudy days... and sometimes... I feel like I have to look for Him. And once I see it... I can't ignore it. Its there... its ALL that I can see! God wants me to search for him. God isn't just an answer key to my life. He is always here, and He knows best... but He isn't a dictator. Sometimes He says 'yes', sometimes He says 'no' and sometimes He leaves things up to us. He has given us free will, and choice, and He wants to bless us to use it. This part can be scary sometimes. I want my freedom, and I want to be able to make decisions for myself... but so often when it comes down to it I just wish please will someone else make this decision for me?! What it really comes down to is faith. And trust. Do I truly believe that even if I make the 'wrong' decision that God can bring good from it? that God can teach me something through this mistake?

Yes. I do believe that. I believe that there are times I just have to take a risk. Sometimes I go with my gut instinct. Sometimes its what I think someone else (someone I admire and respect!) would do. Other times I just pick at random, because I don't have a clue. And even if it seems crazy or impossible... I can still have a peace in my heart because I've prayed about it before hand (and still am praying about it) and I know that as long as I'm trusting in God and walking with Him... He will work all things together for good... because I love Him and am in relationship with Him.

I won't always be searching for that horizon line. I don't have to know where the sky ends and the sea begins. There isn't always a YES or a NO... sometimes you just have to go with it. Walk in faith. Trust that when you step out of the boat that either you will walk on the water, or Jesus will grab your hand and pull you to safety. And you've got to step out of that boat, no matter how scary it seems... because Jesus called you!

Where does the sky and water meet? Where does heaven meet earth? well... on a day like today, there was a lot of middle ground. There was water in the sky and the wind was in the sea. A lot of people don't like the rain, but there's something glorious about it to me.