each and every day

Some weeks just seem to drag by... especially when I am looking forward to something that is happening NEXT week. And even though I seem to have been busy... time is moving so slowly. I just keep wanting to rush ahead into the next step. The next step in my career path, then next step into moving out, the next step towards anywhere but where I am right now.

You're going to miss this
You're going to want this back
You're going to wish these days
Hadn't gone by so fast
These are some good times
So take a good look around
You may not know it now
But you're going to miss this

Story of my life. I am so concerned about the future. I am afraid that I am going to miss something big in my life if I don't get moving, but I am going to miss it because I'm just not paying attention and enjoying what is happening RIGHT NOW!

When I look back at this week, its been really good. I have had a day off to just chill and do pretty much nothing at all, I made a blood donation, I did more training at the Kingfisher, I went out for breaky with a friend, I have gone for lovely walks in the rain and sun, I went to a friends place for supper, and got to support a friend by going to a play she was in and then enjoy blizzards together afterwards. How can I complain about a week like that? Its been great. And yet my heart is aching for more.

What else is there?

Time spent with Jesus, thats what I am missing. I have been enjoying doing so much "for myself" that I haven't taken any time out of my day to spend with Jesus. And it is taking a toll on me. And honestly, even though I have had a great week, I've been miserable. Its my own fault. I have had nothing but time... and continued to fill it by bumming around and watching Gilmore girls. A very enjoyable way to spend my time... but totally fruitless. Maybe its time for a fast from watching things online. So I am finishing my last episode of Gilmore girls for a week. Start small. So instead of Gilmore girls its time to read the Good Book and spend some time re-focusing.

I have great things to look forward to this week. Going to see my cousin and good friends in Victoria. I start my new job. And one thing that I'm not too excited about.... taking my NLS re-certification. Ahhh! That ones a little scary. But there are so many other good things. And this time I am going to do my best to enjoy it. Take time to enjoy EVERY moment. With my heart focused in the right place. Each day is a blessing. Each day is a gift. Each day has a purpose.